There have been many a time when I watched my friends with envy - how they could enjoy a close relationship with their parents, how they can share their tears and joy with them without having the information used against them later on and how the whole family works as a system of support unconditionally.
Many a time I questioned why I am unable to get that from my own parents.
The answer finally dawned on me last year: when searching for people who are going through similar ordeals as mine, I found the term - narcissistic. One thing led to another and before I knew it, I was reading Characteristics of Narcissistic Mothers by Light's House and nodding my head vehemently as I could relate to at least 20 points out of the 24 mentioned.
There have been too many years and too much energy wasted trying to get my own parents to understand me, their own child - all of them leading to arguments, violence, frustration and most of all, exhaustion on my part. Currently, I am trying to be at peace with myself by reminding myself each day that they would never change but I could change my way of dealing with them and my perspective towards them.
If you are reading this and you happen to be in the same boat as me, please feel free to leave a comment. One thing I have come to realise after reading so many blog posts about narcissism is that we are NOT alone.
